she or HER?

I'm very sad now...y ? my mom cannot let me do wat i like...i noe she is protecting me...bt y can't i choose to love someone without care abt others thing...i scared i will miss my right one...if i choose her i will loss my mom n everything she give me...if it's tat she will nvr accept her? i hope tat before she nvr hurt me so tat my mom will still accept her...bt i think i really love her...From i'm small to now i still depend on my mom n she hold me tight...bt y can't she let me go? Too much protection will make me like in the cage...althought i can go out so often bt sometimes really like my leg is still at my home...tat mean i still have to go back...i wan to tell my mom" ma ru guo ni ai wo, ni ke yi rang wo ai ta ma?" bt i noe she won let me for now...wat shuold i do? Give up her n leave tis relationship die forever? I noe i will regret forever if i nvr try til the end...it will be a dirt/sorrow for my life...mom or her? gt her i will loss my mom...gt mom i will loss her...haih...n i noe everyone sure will ask me to choose my mom...bt my feeling is nt same...i'm a kind of person tat dun like to gv up something when i dunnoe it was impossible...or maybe it is possible...she really nt the one? haih...maybe tis is my another sorrow in my life...i nid to die again? n another jack will born again?