My feelings in my heart...

Erm...sorry to my friends tat dun understand chinese...bt i think i can write beta when i using chinese to wrote tis blog...kk...i start...我想告诉大家我心里想说的话...我对他有时很伤心...不公平...为什么总要我哄你？就算我不开心我也哄你因为我知道我是你的男友...但是当我想你哄我时你却不懂我需要你哄...还要我告诉你说我要你疼疼...你却说你不会哄人...我会伤心的...每次跟我聊天...你都说别人的事跟“他"的事你就比较开心...就算你不开心也会笑...但是我叻？你不开心只会不想回答我问题不想跟我讲话...信息也会短短...但是我还是要忍要哄你...你都担心他我叻？ 你有想过身为男友因为你因为别的男生而没心情的感受吗？我还是忍...你说他要做你干哥...虽然我怕他再追回你但是还是相信你...男生多所会把喜欢的女生做干妹再追回...你坐他摩多跟他出去我也要让了...但是你说过不喜欢坐人摩多...咳！为什么我们的生活还是有“他”？我要怎样相信你？当你吃醋是因为我提到别的女生但是你叻？ 你每次提到他...我也是要笑着跟你说他的事...当我吃醋你都故意装不想跟我聊...我什么感受？会死的...咳！我不要再有他...你每次不开心都不告诉我什么事...到底是不想我担心还是不相信我？ 咳！谁可以回答我这些问题？

I think today happy gua...

Today i had awaken...bcoz of a counsellor...he noe how to tell stories n it is really meaningful...i hope to find him soon...n ask for more advice...he said no more slippng...he told us mant story...bt i most remember a story...it is abt two worms...one is call Xian huang n one is Xiao Hei...one day a professor caught them...then he took them to do an experiment...he took Xiao Hei up n then Xiao hei ask him wat u wan to do? He said swimming loh n then juz threw it in to a basin wif water...then xiao hei keep moving it body to swim up...then when it goin to drown...the the professor took it up n said nt bad...u made a record of 3 minutes...then he took Xiao Huang n do the same thing...n Xiao huang is oso 3 minutes...The professor then repeat n repeat to threw them in to the basin n record the time...Xiao Hei record keep falling n at last it shout Help ! n then sink into the water...then the professor threw it far away...n then he praise xiao huang tat his record is excellent n gtting much beta...then at nite when xiao hei crawl bek to find xiao huang to escape from the lab...bt then during that time sud rain heavily...then they had been washed by the rain into the drain...at last xiao hei died...bt xiao huang survive...u noe y? bcoz xiao huang had learnt how to swim during the experiment...the conclusion for the experiment n the lesson is tat to be serious when we r doing anything...we will gain something gd...juz like xiao huang learn to swim n survive...we muz always learning til the day we can't learn...tis story really woke me up...so i decided to try my best in spm...yeah....

she or HER?

I'm very sad now...y ? my mom cannot let me do wat i like...i noe she is protecting me...bt y can't i choose to love someone without care abt others thing...i scared i will miss my right one...if i choose her i will loss my mom n everything she give me...if it's tat she will nvr accept her? i hope tat before she nvr hurt me so tat my mom will still accept her...bt i think i really love her...From i'm small to now i still depend on my mom n she hold me tight...bt y can't she let me go? Too much protection will make me like in the cage...althought i can go out so often bt sometimes really like my leg is still at my home...tat mean i still have to go back...i wan to tell my mom" ma ru guo ni ai wo, ni ke yi rang wo ai ta ma?" bt i noe she won let me for now...wat shuold i do? Give up her n leave tis relationship die forever? I noe i will regret forever if i nvr try til the end...it will be a dirt/sorrow for my life...mom or her? gt her i will loss my mom...gt mom i will loss her...haih...n i noe everyone sure will ask me to choose my mom...bt my feeling is nt same...i'm a kind of person tat dun like to gv up something when i dunnoe it was impossible...or maybe it is possible...she really nt the one? haih...maybe tis is my another sorrow in my life...i nid to die again? n another jack will born again?

Y U CAN'T UNDERSTAND ＭＥ？

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Happy bt then hate....then HAPPY

Act today is a happy day...i thought today i will write my blog without haih ...bt then...haih...she din buy the contact lences to me today...bt it is oso a happy n lovely day...after when i'm bek home...i realize y girls like to angry sud? n then very sensitive? u noe it is hard to cummunicate? bcoz i CAN'T tell u straightly n CAN'T be true to u...i'm a kind of ppl tat like to tell everything without cheating n thinking too much...bt i din mean to hurt anyone...i wan to be true...bt y u all always wan to like very mind abt it ? Sometimes i really piss off...n sometimes i nid to entertain u n juz avoid to be angry...bt haha...very funny...i write tis blog wif the different time...now i with a happy mood...means the 2nd time...i continue loh...erm...i met my 2nd ex...she can be say a slut or bitch...she still nvr change...still targeting her ex bf friend to be the next...funny...she came to find my friend...she targeting him d...hahaha...she juz do like very cute n then said those pervert things in front of my friend...i was laughing at there...bt the most funny is she was talking herself n she ownself laugh...laugh d still said it is nt funny...hahahahahahah...lol...stupid...n we tried to avoid her n i think she noe...bt she still laughing at there...then she walked away...funny, rite? she nvr change...act i thought she will change...bt i won sad for her d...bcoz i am very tired to sad for her...k la..i think i stop here...n hahahahah...happy n sweet...

Heart very pain n tired

Haih...dunnoe y sud feel tired...when u said u r nt my gf...i feel sad...n i'm feeling tired to entertain u anymore...i sud dunwan to talk dunwan to chatwif anyone...i very very very tired...y u all always wan to take others gals to say? n then when i say...then u angry...then compare...haih...y have to make it moody n then sad? Enough...i'm getting tired n sad...All of u always say those things like u care abt me bt u juz dunwan me to care...i am very sad n hurt...u noe? Enough d...i dunwan d...i go die...

LIke me?

Maybe i'll hv happy day....my 1st ex will buy me a pair of contact lense...i really wanted it the most...i feel she really love me tis time than last time...she is more care abt me...she very easy jealous now...juz a gal name i mentioned then she angry...bt another hand...the gal i'm chasing is gtting better wif me...wat should i do?...new or old again?...bt then one more gal which is my friend gf...i think she is a bit like me...he noe abt it...n he don mind...n i dunwan destroy ppl love especially my friend love...haih...if i on wif my 1st ex...how abt HER? she is a gd gal...haih...many things i can't accept yet...i think i should do something 1st...i juz keep it as secret 1st...n maybe i will write on here later...haih....

Love？

haih...actually i'm nt goin to write tis blog so early...bt i juz can't wait...i wan to share my feelings d...My 1st ex hv broke with her bf...her bf is my bro...n then i dunnoe he still angry or misunderstanding me n her...haiz...i can feel tat she is more like me than before...bt sometimes i think she like playing me...n she sud ask me to go out on tuesday wif her...i noe she wan us to be couple again...bt she juz broke..y? u will let me think u r playing me...i dunwan...n i'm chasing a gal...she maybe is beta..bt she like nt really like me...she sometimes really care abt me or else...bt soemtimes really hurt me bcoz i like nt really important to her...she is a gal tat more importance her friends...bt tis i understand...bcoz she nt really undertsanding me n sometimes friends r beta...bt y u dunwan gv me a chance? i had exp...tats y i understand..bcoz my 1st ex is oso like tis...bt then..her friends betrayed her...tats y...haih...i hv to choose hu now? my ex or the new gal? when i choose my ex...i scared she is playing me...when i choose the new one...i scared she nt really like me...it is totally different...n the new one can't out oftenly...haih....Tis is my third relationship if i on wif her..n my feelings r totally diferent n i'm nt confident in love anymore...

Haiz...Sorry sorry sorry...

haihzz...i din do anything between u n her...u n her break is juz she wan break....n y u hv to make it til we can't be friends anymore? It is worth? i noe u r hurt ,sad n angry...if u think u r correct then i should oso angry when u n her start a relationship when i juz break wif her? u told me wat do u remember? U said there is no wrong and right in love...anywhere v already meet almost 16 yrs ++...n we played together from babies to standard 6...then we still brothers...is it have to abandon it? our friendship? haih...k...end of tis story...erm...i noe both of u like me...one have love me 3 yrs ++...n one juz met...bt i rather to be wat v r now...bcoz i noe i will hurt u both...i nt a gd guy u think...v r nt the same kind of ppl...don cry bcoz of me...nt worth at all...don think too much abt me d...juz treat me as best friends....it is bf...bt v oso can always talk many things...u both maybe the most understand me n it is gd to be like tis...u both gt wat tat my gf can't do...n i dunnoe maybe future gt any gf can do tis...bt at least u both r the best...stay beside me...n support me...if u both find anyone u like n beta than me...u both can juz ignore me or else...u both is really one of the most important person in my life...i luv u both...n sometimes when i hurt u or make u moody it is very sorry...n i din mean it....sorry...i juz wan to sing sorry sorry....

My 1st blog...

Actually i juz wan to share my feelings on here...erm...Tis is my 1st blog...hope it is easy to understand...haiz...juz on yesterday...i heard abt her again...she had stop her education...she wan to do job...bt i noe it is nt so simply...haiz...she will make her life worst...her future? her everything is bcome worst...even the friends beside her is only some useless n hopeless friends..they juz noe how to smoke, drink, having complicated relationship n drugs...she is juz 15 yrs old..when i heard tis...my heart pain...i juz hope i nvr noe her...bt anywhere she is my 2nd ex..she sms me..bt when i asked her wat she work as n y she last nite 1 something am still busy...i think maybe she go slip wif other ppl again or doing others bad things....it is her parents fault...her life is bcoz their careless...stupid parents...haih...Another is my 1st ex...she gt contact wif me...bt then she still gt feel wif me...n i oso hope we can be couple again...bt she gt bf...n then when she told me she juz wan to break wif him...i suddenly nt dare to talk abt it...i scared i will think abt myself n destroy their relationship...bt my heart tell me to do so....haih...i dunnoe...i dunnoe y i wan relationship...maybe ppl think i'm playboy...bt i noe i maybe nt love them...bt i juz wan to forget someone...haih...anywhere she is my 1st ex...bt...i met a new gal...she is good...i noe i'm loving her more n more...i juz take her as my main target...haih...i'm bad in relationship isn't it?...maybe i'm juz dunwan to forget anyone in my life...haih..my friends sometimes oso make me disappointed...i juz told her tat i wan watch the movie Alice In The Wonderland last week...bt then on tat day..i mean yesterday...i sms her to buy tat time...she said full d...she juz remember to sms my others friends n remind them...bt nt me...she said she forgot me...k..fine...i only noe i'm disappointed n sad to u...u nvr take me as a friend...